Recon Work: Not So Bad

 So, yesterday I finally took about 15 - 20 minutes and did my recon work.  It may not have been as in-depth as I had originally intended, but it got a lot!!  It wasn't as bad or painful as I honestly thought it would be.  It is actually more painful to sit and have the messy house staring at me as I try to accomplish something, than it was to sit and itemize what really needed to be done.  Don't get me wrong, there is plenty to do!!  The list was just not as long as I expected it to be, what a Relief!!  

Now comes the hard part!! Waging war on my enemy!! :-).  I will have to be sneaky and pick one agent (mess) off at a time.   I won't be able to get every agent taken care of in one day, and intellectually I understand that, but emotionally it is a different story!!  For some unknown, illogical reason, when I go to start, I somehow think that I will be able to quickly get through it.  That the agent won't put up any defenses or fight back. In a perfect world I am sure that that would be true, but as I don't live in a perfect world (shocking I know), things rarely go as I plan, and that is when the emotional battle begins. 

The hardest part if the up-coming war is going to be PATIENCE.  Patience with myself, with my enemy, and with the delays that always seem to come.  I am going to have to fight hard to keep the discouragement (one of my enemies strongest defenses) at bay.  

Wish me luck!! (I have a feeling I am going to need it.) 

New strategy

Well, as it has been about 6 weeks, and I still have yet to complete any surveillance or gain any valuable info on my enemy.  Meanwhile my enemy (in this case my house) has been employing its own "dirty and messy" tactics to distract and keep me from my recon work.  You remember those jr. agents I was to train?  I am beginning to think that they are actually double agents or moles sent to disrupt and destroy my mission from the inside.    

I've tried leaving for a full 5 days, I've tried getting help from my Jr. Agents, and still, I am making no progress!!  None, absolutely none!!  As I said, I am beginning to wonder if they are Jr. Agents or enemy spies.  It is very frustrating.  Some days all I want to do is run and hide, but unfortunately I seem to be stuck in enemy territory, with no chance/route for escape.  I may get a day or two reprieve here or there, but then I am right back, unable to truly escape it. 

I am not quite yet ready to wave my white flag, but I do need a new strategy.  This one doesn't seem to be getting the job done.  I just don't know what to do.  Nothing I try to do seems to help at all.  I'll just have to sleep on it for a little while.  Or maybe go take a long,  nice, hot shower.  I seem do my best thinking there.